Guest post from Audrey Assad
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night
around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine
like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost
being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
One of the strange things about God’s watchfulness is that, unlike any human vision, His is not only rich in foresight (knowing each thought before it is in your mind, every word before it is on your tongue) and full to the brim with the knowledge of each past event in every human life lived on this planet, but also incisive in its searching–He is witnessing *you* — not just your actions or the things you do. He witnesses not only the things you fear and loathe, the things you love and sacrifice for, or the inherently stamped goodness from creation and the lingering sin that combine to form your modus operandi (the way you work), but also the deepest essence of who you individually are. He knows the you that nobody else knows or could ever fully know; the you that you yourself cannot understand; the you that is a mystery to yourself. It is this “you” that God is the sole, perfect, entire witness to—you are seen and taken in at a glance by your Creator—your organs and your nerves and your pulses, the tiny hopes you dare not voice, the massive, entrenched fears you dare not face—He witnesses all of it, and loved you before you ever lived it.
By witnessing your life and who you are, He stamps it with an irrevocable dignity and worth–you matter to God. You matter. You are precious precisely because the most important Someone in the universe treasures you. God is witnessing you, watching you, seeing you, because He values you–and because He values you, your value is immeasurable.
In each of our hearts there are places only Christ can venture. Christ is the great revealer–only in knowing Him and entering into the reality of His knowledge of us can we know ourselves truly. Christ reveals man to himself.
It is strange to be always watched–always seen–always illuminated. (we like to hide, don’t we?) But this is the very source and also the goal of human intimacy–to reflect the Mystery of God’s watchfulness, and the equally beautiful Mystery of Christ’s humble willingness to be witnessed and fully known by the Father. In fact, this knowing and being known, this Sonship, was and is Christ’s primary identity. He is first Son, then Savior–His redeeming stems from His relationship to the Father.
Let the closeness of God put your soul at rest about how much you are valued.
Let Him watch You–there is kindness in His eyes.
He knows you better than you will ever know yourself, and you are infinitely priceless—created, seen, and known by God.
Press into this Mystery.